From Diabetes To Stuffed Animals

washed-in-the-blood-of-the-lamb“That was an interesting approach you took in your sermon this morning,” God said and took up a spot beside the fireplace. “And by the way,” He said with what seemed to be a slight irritation, “why do you keep it so cold in this house?”

I was only a few paces away and in the middle of pouring myself a whisky from one of my better bottles.

“I don’t control the thermostat around here,” I said. “Jen does. I just put on a sweatshirt or do what you’re doing.”

“That whisky will warm you, too,” He said and gave a point and a nod. “Ta hagia tois, hagiois.”

I didn’t answer. I took a sip and walked over to stand beside Him.

“That sermon…” He said again and then went silent. I didn’t respond right away, but instead took another sip from the dram.

“We took the scenic route to the Gospel, today,” I offered and looked down at my feet. I was wearing the thick blue and gray socks that Jennifer had given to me for Christmas a few years back. I only wore them when it was really cold. They’re still in great shape because I don’t wear them very often. With my bad back, they’re really hard to pull on.

“Yes, it was the more scenic way,” God answered, “but I think it was worthwhile.”

“The usual suspects probably thought I was just rambling.”

“But you put a lot into that sermon,” He affirmed and patted my shoulder. “It was a little more winding than usual, but the Gospel was more than preached.”

“I wanted the folks to understand the importance of Christian recognition,” I said and took another sip. “I wanted them to know that because the Holy Spirit is alive in them, they have the ability to see and then make certain points of connection that no one else can.”

“A good portion of my Church seems to be in the process of losing this,” He said, His voice trending toward sadness. He pushed His foot up next to mine as if comparing sizes. “The more they push the Church’s heritage away,” He continued, “the further they get from being able to recognize some very important things.” He paused for a moment. “I like how you used the Pharisees as an example.”

“That was easy,” I said and looked down at my socks again. “Those knuckleheads…” But then I stopped and gave Him a glance. I reconsidered the title I’d just given.

“That’s alright,” God chuckled comfortingly. “That’s what the word ‘Pharisee’ means in the original language. It means ‘head of knuckles’.” I laughed and He did, too.

Still grinning, I tapped at my glass. “They wanted a sign,” I continued. “Jesus told them the only one they’d get was the sign of Jonah—someone who was, for all intents and purposes, dead for three days and then suddenly found alive again and giving a message of power that saved the worst of the worst. The Pharisees couldn’t put two and two together. They couldn’t see what that account was pointing to.”

“But the seven-year-old girl with Diabetes can see these things,” He added. “And that is very important.”

“She sure perked up when I said her name from the pulpit and shared the story about her.”

“She sure did,” He said. “And I’m glad you told the story. It brightened Evelyn’s day to be a sermon-worthy example for the rest of the church. And, by the way, I know for a fact that it clicked for some folks.”

“It did?”

“Yes, it did,” He affirmed. “You’ll be getting an email about it on Tuesday.”

“Good or bad?”

“Don’t worry,” He said. “It’s a good note.” I asked the persuasion of the forthcoming message because I already knew very well that preaching the pure Word of God results in both good and bad responses. It stirs thankfulness, but sometimes it also ricochets from stony hearts and causes trouble.

“I didn’t intend to tell the story in the sermon,” I said and took another sip. “It just seemed to fit when I was editing it before worship this morning.”

“Tell me again what happened,” God pried.

It was Saturday afternoon. Jennifer and Madeline were gone. The boys were upstairs doing something—probably playing video games. Evelyn was sitting at the island in the kitchen and checking her blood sugar. I was making her lunch.

“Momma told me you had a rough day on Wednesday,” I said while twisting off the lid of the peanut butter jar.

“She did?”

“Yeah. She said you got a little tired of the whole Diabetes thing, and that you were sad.”

“Yeah,” she said with a sigh.

“What’s bothering you these days?” I asked.

“It’s boring,” she said. This didn’t make sense at first, especially because I know that Diabetes is anything but boring. But then she explained, and as she did, I knew that what the seven-year-old meant was that she’d had enough of the regiment and wanted it to go away. She wanted something new. “I always have to poke my fingers,” she started. “You always have to wake me up and do it at night. I always have to get shots. I’m tired of Diabetes. It’s boring.”

Evelyn had once again come to a moment that previous Wednesday night—when it was just she and her Momma rocking in a chair before bed—a time when the demands of her Diabetes had worn her little body very thinly. She was tired. She wanted to be rid of it.

“You know,” I began with as passing a tone as I could, “things like Diabetes won’t be around forever.”

“Will there be a cure someday?” she asked.

“I don’t know. Maybe. What I meant is that when we’re in heaven, Diabetes won’t be around to bore us anymore.”

“It won’t?”

“Nope, and that sure makes this guy very happy—this guy right here making your sandwich who has a very bad back that likes to bore him every day.”

“Will your back hurt in heaven?”

“Nope. My back will be strong.” This made her smile.

Now, I didn’t have a Bible nearby, although I didn’t really need one. I’d read the particular text so many times it was already as familiar to me as my own name. I scooped out the strawberry jelly and began to recite for her a portion from Revelation chapter seven. She perked up and listened intently as I spoke.

Then one of the elders addressed me, saying, “Who are these, clothed in white robes, and from where they have come?” I said to him, “Sir, you know.” And he said to me, “These are the ones coming out of the great tribulation. They have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. “Therefore they are before the throne of God, and serve him day and night in his temple; and he who sits on the throne will shelter them with his presence. They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore; the sun shall not strike them, nor any scorching heat. For the Lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd, and he will guide them to springs of living water, and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.”

“That’s a vision of heaven that Saint John wrote down for us in the Book of Revelation,” I said. “That’s going to be us one day. Everything that’s wrong with our bodies in this life will be gone in heaven.”

“It will?”

“Yes,” I said and licked the jelly from the butter knife before setting it into the sink. “And God Himself will reach out with His own hands and wipe away all of the tears caused by the troubles of this world.”

And then she took the conversation in a slightly different direction. Within her began the engagement of a full-on assault against her mortal worries. Her Christian recognition was stirred and a very important connection was made—one worthy of being included in the Sunday sermon.

“Those people in front of the throne,” she said rather confidently, “they were baptized.” I didn’t say anything just yet, but rather let the seven-year-old’s wisdom be displayed. “Their robes were white. They were washed in the Lamb’s blood. Jesus is the Lamb of God. Baptism is being washed in His blood and it makes us clean. Those people were baptized.”

“Yes,” I said. “That’s exactly what that part means. Those people were baptized Christians.”

“I’m baptized, too.”

“Yes, you are.”

I could see that the wheels were beginning to spin in her head even more rapidly. She was making the connections in her mind that her Diabetes and my bad back—both terribly “boring” issues with which we both struggle—had already been sentenced to eternal death by the shedding of Jesus’ blood on the cross. She’d been washed in that blood in Baptism and made an heir of heaven—a place where she’d be forever rid of Diabetes and her dad would feel better.

“She got it,” God said. “Christian recognition is pretty great, isn’t it?”

“Yes, it is.”

“What else did you talk about? Did she say anything else at lunch?”

“We talked about her stuffed animal, Fluffers,” I said, “and how she thinks he’s probably her favorite right now.”

“Yeah,” God smiled and gave me one of His signature elbows. “Remembering the promises given in Baptism has a way of bringing that kind of ease—you know, the kind that goes from the painful challenge of Diabetes to the comfort of stuffed animals.”

I looked back down to my socks, a pair I enjoyed wearing but, as I said, have always been so challenging to put on.

You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine

tearful flowers and the sunshine“Hey, Chris,” God whispered. “I want you to see something.”

“What’s that?”

“Take a look at the very next post in the Facebook scroll. Jennifer just shared it.”

Sure enough, even as I was passing some time and tapping through the day’s messages from friends and family, Jen’s post appeared. It was a video of Evelyn. I watched.

Wow.

“Remember what happened a few days ago with that new lancet?” God reminded.

“How can I forget?” I mumbled through my teeth. “And how can you forget how pissed I was with you that night. I said some things, didn’t I?”

“You did?” God asked sounding somewhat surprised. “I don’t remember that. I do remember your repentance and faith in my Son, and with that, I forgave you. Everything else is forgotten. Seriously, I haven’t the slightest idea what you said to me.”

“Sounds like Hebrews 8 verse 12.”

“You got it, friend. All is well.”

I took a moment and saved the video to my favorites. God nudged again.

“Hey, Chris.”

“Yeah?”

“Do you remember what happened yesterday after school?”

“Yeah. I was pretty proud of Evelyn for taking a stab at that new lancet one more time.” I chuckled at my own words. “No pun intended.”

“Tell me about what happened,” He urged.

“But you already know what happened.”

“Tell me anyway,” He said gently. “I love to listen.”

And so I did. I crafted a scene in which Evelyn and I were sitting on stools at the kitchen counter. We were preparing to check her blood sugar, and so I told her I thought we should give the new lancet another try. But before I could even finish the sentence, she was in tears. She didn’t want to do it.

“Honey,” I said and reached out to embrace her. I held her very close. “You are the bravest girl I know. You can do this. We can do this. We’ve made a great team, so far, and we’ll do this together.”

“I don’t wanna do it, Daddy,” she slurred through tears and a runny nose, her little face getting redder and messier. “I just want to use the other one.”

“But, honey,” I said, “that one still hurts a little, right? This one won’t hurt at all. It works in a whole different way than the other lancet, so we’ll be able to use it in other spots and save your little fingers from so many pokes.”

“I’m scared,” she kept on, tears getting worse.

“Remember, we’re a team,” I said. “I’ll do it, too.”

She sat silent for a moment. Her tears weren’t lessening, but her eyes met with mine to show me that she was thinking.

“And before we do this together,” I continued, “let’s pray. Let’s ask God for the courage. I know He loves us, and I know He’ll help us through it.”

“Yeah,” she sniffled and bobbed her head. I took the moment in full stride and wrapped my arms so very tightly around her. We both bowed our heads together. I set my head against her head—my mouth nearest to her little ear—and we prayed something like this…

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen. Dear heavenly Father, thank You so very much for giving us Your Son, Jesus Christ. He lived, suffered, died, and rose again to make us His own. We need your help, right now. Please give us courage to try this new lancet again. Help us to know that even when things seem tough and we are afraid, You love us so very much. We know this because even while we are sinners, You gave us Jesus, and You rescued us. That means You love us. Send Your Holy Spirit by this wonderful Gospel to strengthen our hearts. Again, we need the help that only You can give. Keep our eyes fixed upon Jesus right now. We know You will, because You keep Your promises. We humbly pray all of this in Jesus’ name, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen.

“Amen,” Evelyn whispered.

A short moment passed.

“Do you want me to go first?” I asked.

She wiped away her tears. “I can do it,” she said. “But can we sing the song?”

“Absolutely, honey!” I said with a smile. “In fact, how about when we get to the word ‘happy,’ that’s when you can press the button and click it? I know that pop sound is kind of scary and that way you’ll know when it’s coming.”

Her tears returned, but I could tell she was going to do it.

“Okay,” she said, took the lancet in hand, positioned it on her palm, and then started to sing. I sang with her.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy… Click. …when skies are gray. You’ll never know dear how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away.

“You did it!” I said with extra exuberance. “Now hold it in place until it draws up the blood. Wow! You’re doing a great job!” Her tears still fell, but it only took a moment of praise before a smile began to emerge and her sobs were calmed.

“Did it hurt?” I asked while trying to meet with her eyes.

She shook her head.

“Awesome!” I said. “Oh, I can’t wait for you to tell Momma! She’ll be home any minute and she’ll be so proud of you! But before she gets here, let’s give God a quick thank-you for helping us.”

We bowed again in the exact same manner as before. The prayer was swift.

Oh, thank you heavenly Father through Jesus Christ Your dear Son for the courage you gave. You are so good to us. We love you. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen.

“Amen,” the little diabetic girl whispered once more, this time with a more defined smile.

“I sure do like that story,” God said.

“Yeah, me too.”